"Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts."

Isaiah 55:9

The past 5 to 6 years have been woven with, not equal but large amounts of trials, tears, and triumph. You would think that now that I am almost 5o, I would be oh so wise, that I would have answers to all the questions that my daughters could ever ask. HA HA!

Possibly the most important thing that I have learned over the past years is, that I don't have the answer to why people treat people the way they do, or why things happen the way they do but I have learned that sometimes you just have to admit it and trust the one who does, and know that He has our best in mind.

I know that satan is alive in the world and that he moves about searching who to destroy and I have seen first hand his works of the death of a child, the effects of how he works through alcohol, selfishness, pride and bitterness. I have lost several family members to his deceiving lying tongue of alcohol. Things have happened in our own close family that show me he knows no boundaries. Todd and I have spent many hours praying for family members who have stepped or pulled away. Which raises the question, would I have been on my knees if this wasn't going on? Am I drawing nearer to my Father? Isn't that what He wants more than anything, for us to abide in Him, seeking his face, meditating on His word? He is to be glorified and trusted in all things. Do we only sing Hallelujah during the feast? It must be in the growing, stretching, down on your face-I can't find the words to speaks times as well.

Thank you Father, thank you for loving me the days I am just so unloveable and the days I'm sitting right on your lap. Help me to trust that even though I don't know the answers or just don't see the why of it all, you do and that is enough.

Till Next Time, God Bless

Jackie